Sunday Life Advice: “Everything’s Changed, Including Me”

There comes a point in your life, where you realize nothing has ever gone to plan. Or in my case, any plan I might have had, was always pulled back into line by the hand of God. Once you take the ego out of it, things become so much easier. Sometimes I think stubborness is the work of the devil (though not all resistance is bad).  But that’s a philosophical conversation that ought to be had in a pub, with a drink, and maybe a book of Yeats nearby.

What's on my desk right now.

Some people talk about “keeping their sanity” or staying on “this side of normal.” But what’s normal now, certainly wasn’t even on the horizon of where I thought I would be say –20 years ago. Or how about 30?  40?  50?  Well, yes, I am old enough to have a 50 years ago.  Normal changes.

I’m bringing this up because many are coming home from war. Who they are now, may not have been on the horizon of their consciousness even 2 years ago. And yet they are changed. The challenge set forth is a false one: that they must get back to who they were before war. But in reality, no one really ever gets back to who they were even 2 years ago. Everything changes, and most of all, your experiences have shaped your perspective in ways you will still be discovering 20 years from now.

Families change too. Spouses, children, parents and friends. You’re not alone in feeling the drift, the growth, regret, hope, nostalgia, and even wistfulness. They’re in as much need of counseling and letting go of the myth everything (meaning you, them, or you and them) will revert back to the way things were. Because they know they won’t, and while they accept and soldier on, it doesn’t make it any less painful. One thing for sure: we can never go back in time. (Sorry, but the VA has yet to develop a Tardis). So never think you’re alone, because change is never easy for everyone. But one thing can make it easier: people you meet who will act as guides.

Just let those guides through an open door once in awhile. Who knows –it could be a person, a book, a poem, a song, a movie, an animal, or it could just be a day when you go outside and take in the open sky, noticing the shades of a sunrise. Some will be long term influences, others will just happen in passing. Look for those that have set off a spark within that compels you to take some positive steps to grow.  Growth is change, it happens slowly. And while the mental or physical changes in you might have happened quickly, progress comes one step at a time. It’s not always easy. But just keep going toward the light, and when an open hand comes your way: grasp it.

Side note: Big nod of gratitude to the Nick Vogt Family, whose daily postings about their son’s progress on Facebook have been a window into a family built on unconditional love. We are thankful they share their journey with the public.

In Saratoga Springs NY: National Guard Vets Tell Their Stories

Our friend LtCol (Ret) Paul Fanning of the New York Army National Guard has sent in this wonderful event he is coordinating. As you know, there are lots of ways to work things out emotionally. One of them is through movement and breathe work, and being conscious of tension held in the muscles and mind. The other is by telling stories.  I’ve always held that writing allows us to put things down concretely in paper. The therapeutic part comes later, when we go through our work and re-organize it. Through editing, we highlight the most important parts of the story, and let the other parts go. What we have at the end (and it can take a lot of passes before you think you’ve got it right), is an organized perspective of what happened and why it mattered.

On 24 March, in Saratoga Springs NY. Stories from the Sandbox by the men and women who served in Iraq.

Upcoming Events: Earn CE Credits at a Trauma Seminar with Bessel van der Kolk, M.D.

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An event worth trying to go to if you’re in the area.  PTSD research pioneer and physician Bessel van der Kolk will be at Kripalu at a 2 day seminar Frontiers of Trauma Treatment.

From the blog:

Program Details

For therapists, health professionals, yoga instructors, and other individuals interested in studying the nature and process of trauma.

Overcoming trauma means learning to fully engage in the present without being hijacked by survival-related emotions and sensations. Success means allowing yourself to know what you know and feel what you feel without reentering the misery of the past. Recovery depends on having physical experiences that contradict the sensations and feelings of helplessness and disconnection. Physical mastery of a body-based practice like yoga can open new pathways to current reality.

This workshop, based on the foundational practices of yoga and mindfulness meditation, includes

  • Current research on trauma
  • An exploration of the way overwhelming experiences change the capacity for self-regulation and how imprints of trauma are held in the body
  • How brain function is shaped by experience and how life itself can continually transform the organization of brain circuits
  • Specific techniques that address affect regulation, the integration of dissociated aspects of experience, chronic helplessness, and the reintegration of human connections.

Your increased understanding fertilizes the application of effective trauma interventions, including EMDR, yoga and sensorimotor processing, Internal Family Systems, and neurofeedback.

Note To Teachers: Don’t Be Afraid Of Silence

I receive suggestions to sample classes online. Online yoga classes are great for people who don’t have regular access to a studio, are tired of DVDs, or aren’t ready to go into a yoga class just yet. Recently, I  took two free yoga class through Yogisanonymous.com. Like with most things, one was a hit and the other a miss.

In fact, the “miss” is the one I am writing about. I stopped the class 34 minutes in because it so aptly showed the difference between a regular yoga class and a trauma-sensitive yoga class. It boiled down to what’s said, and what’s not said.

The reason? The instructor’s endless chatter. It wasn’t just a matter of wearing a microphone and knowing the camera was on. Like a lot of yoga teachers, she felt obligated to impart some wisdom. But the problem was that her narrative went on and on and on. Her constant editorializing was not only unnecessary, but distracting.  Still, knowing this is epidemic in many yoga circles,  I was game to let her chatter turn into a distant drone  until a delivery of platitudes without thinking about causation or effect distracted me.

“Hips are really an opportunity to bring things out physiologically, emotionally…..” she said.

The class was a regular yoga class, probably fine for the majority of individuals. But here’s where we can  illustrate the difference between her class and one centering on  trauma patients. Her chatter is what we refer to as a trigger disguised as a platitude. She went on and on about hips, how she didn’t know why so much tension was stored there. Her chatter was a casual aside. But we know from therapists and yoga teachers in the field and at the Trauma Center, many victims of rape, incest and molestation would find this casual editorializing confusing –even painful. Their breathing becomes shallow, their blood pressure shoots up. Some have been known to break down or leave the class. In contrast, the skilled teacher is mindful that even a reference to hips and tension or “letting go” may conjure up a memory in the form of an image or feeling of a heinous crime, and take them back to a place where both physically and emotionally –they were unsafe.

Above everything else, Trauma Sensitive Yoga always offers a safe place for its students. The challenge in Trauma Sensitive Yoga is to help people tap into where they are right then and there. To stop the cycle of disassociation from their bodies and tune into their breath and the sensations of movement controlled by themselves. It’s also about giving people choices. When a teacher is attempting to fill every silence, the student has no choice but listen. “So don’t listen,” someone might say. Sorry, but in a student/teacher relationship, the student will always do so.

“In my classes I tend to keep my rambles to a bare minimum. Instructing them physiologically into the pose and maybe making suggestions here and there, but I leave out the BS.”  -Jillian Hunsanger

Perhaps if there is one lesson to be learned: respect the silence of your students.  Teachers work so much already, they should never feel the urge to  editorialize. Never assume that students haven’t thought about these things themselves, and maybe they’re in your class to steal a moment of time to themselves. Silence isn’t scary, rather it’s a sign that your students are focusing on their breath and feelings. Relax, and honor that.

Read: Overcoming Trauma Through Yoga by David Emerson & Elizabeth Hopper, PhD, pages 36-38.

Want to offer yoga to veterans? Advice from a Marine.

Hugo Patrocinio, US Marine Corps. Photo from There And Back Again, a veteran reintegration organization. Click photo to be taken there.

“My advice for anyone wanting to offer a yoga class to veterans without any military experience: Be Yourself. The military community can seem kind very tough, it’s in our nature. Be yourself, respect the service men and women, learn about the culture, learn about the things we do. Most important be genuine, be in tuned with your intuition, and learn from these men and women who have been through so much.”  -Hugo Patrocinio, US Marine Corps

Good friend Hugo Patrocinio talks on a radio show with Give Back Yoga Foundation’s Rob Schware speak about its new program Giving the Gift of Yoga to Veterans. Give Back Yoga Foundation is raising funds to send Yoga Nidra CDs to veterans to help counter the effects of traumatic stress and PTSD suffered by 37% of those who have deployed. The goal is to make the materials free to veterans. The goal is to have the materials ready by November, and donations may be made at their site.   Radio hosts Jessica Durivage and Dianne Ferraro are teachers who admit they have little to no experience with military or veterans, which to their credit –they’re asking questions and taking the first steps to getting involved. Listen to their show, “Where’s My Guru?”

Hugo, today, with the Art Reach Foundation where he volunteers for their Project America. Click photo to be taken to site.

Military community members might be put off by the whooshy sitar music, but get through it because Hugo has a lot to say.